I'm a Velociraptor.

That's what she said....

I've made a decision. It may not be the most stable, lucrative or advised choice, but it's the unbeaten path I must take to accomplish my life's conquest. And you better believe I'm rocking this makeshift trail with a weed whacker, a canteen of coconut water (for energy & hydration) and of course, an optimistically strong stride. Eat my dust, beaches.

What's the point of living; if we are afraid to challenge ourselves? What's the point of dying; if up until your last breath you have not been pursuing your life whole heartedly?

We can't positively progress if we are stuck in the mud, stubborn with our dirty old ways. Place aside influences that inhibit or wrongfully redirect your forward stride (people, bad habits, and mind blocks! OHH &... pointless and dramatic TV shows-->eh hem, repeat after me "TIME SUCK"). Obtain an open mind and heart by becoming who you're meant to be based on what you love--that feeling you get when you're lovin' on an activity that sounds a lot like "awwwww yeaaaaahhhh". My wonderful mother once gave me a book back in grade school (always wanted to say that--not so cool now that I'm turning twenty "how'd I get this old" six. Fail.) titled, "Do What You Love & The Money Will Follow". What a really nice concept--totally ready to try it out...although, I'm adding my own line underneath the title that reads, "And, even if the money doesn't follow...at least you'll be happy". Hopefully you are wise beyond your age and have discovered that happiness is not dollar bills. POW! : )

Some believe we have one chance on earth. If this is true, how would you ideally spend your time? The same way you are right now?

The point of this post came about abruptly and tragically. After the heartbreaking murder of two great guys I had met and became friends with about a month and a half ago, I was reminded immediately of how fragile the tiny speck that is our entire existence can burn out without warning. Facing my mortality, I am consciously re-evaluating my life (something we should be doing everyday). Through my reflection, I realized I wasn't completely in-sync with myself and I hadn't been for a long while. After a few days of utter disappointment with a few areas of my so-called-life and a coffee mug sized cup of tears, I stopped mulling over the unproductiveness of certain parts of my past and instead started focusing on every immediate moment being laid out before me in my future.

In the last few days....I've re-created myself. Or, is it that much like an archeologist, I've unearthed the Krissy that was living just beneath the surface of my skin--yearning to be revealed. Sounds quite magical when thought of that way. How inspiring it is to realize the endless possibilities of our own personal capacities. POW! POW!

Holy, runaway train! I almost forgot to mention my decision. The one I discovered while uncovering the bones of a better me: the ferocious goal devouring Velociraptor of sorts. After all these years of voicing my career visions of running a non-profit and having the passion, but not quite the drive to "Git R Done", I am finally putting my blood (ouch!), sweat (ew!), and tears (salty!) into it. "Awwwwww YEAHHHH"! I'm also jumping on the "struggling artist" bandwagon and painting, drawing & doodling my little heart out for some robert DINERO to keep me afloat. My boss (AKA: Me) doesn't pay me very well--scratch that, doesn't pay me period. So, if you need anything for your walls or know someone that does...commission me/recommend me. Will work for back massages, on occasion! ; )

It's all about making it feel good...

That's what she said.

I think life is all about making IT feel good. The IT I'm referring to is this present moment--the here & now. I believe it is safe to say that every single one of us is aspiring to be happy; happy in our relationships, happy in our careers, happy with our daily decisions, and most importantly…happy with ourselves. My emphasis on being content with the Y Oh U is on the basis that loving yourself enables you to exude happiness in most aspects of life.

Just for a second; imagine your core is a light… or mini sun, perhaps? The happier you are the brighter your star becomes until it radiates on everything around you (relationships, jobs, decisions..etc). The duller your infant baby munchkin sun is, the less the light touches. It’s hard to shine on anyone or anything when you have no rays. You gotta glow big or go home.

So, number 1—love YOU & extend those beams.

Simple…pause….NOT! We are sooo fabulous at saying what we want to do and typically horrendous at actually following through & DO doing it. Especially when it involves coming eye to eye with ourselves. We are our own worst enemy, biggest critic, tallest wall. We stand in the way of everything we want to accomplish and we are wearing boxing gloves, viking horns, a devilish sneer, and steel toe boots. I wouldn’t mess with me in that get up. Hellzzz no. But wait, I just created that beastly baaaaad battalion version of myself with my brilliant (often kooky) little mind. Don’t we create everything with our mind that matters? So, wouldn’t that mean the secret scripture to happiness is controlling your big old brain? Ummm, DUH! What I'm trying to say is WE are in charge of making IT feel good. A big responsibility, but an exciting one. Another reason why I don't believe in being bored...just boring people or people that have not yet gained control of making IT feel good. It's never too late.

So, number 2--Mind over matter--lasso that think tank!

I always ask myself why I feel so good a large majority of the time. It may have a lot to do with perfectly balanced hormones (I also have many leather bound books…and my apartment smells of Italian food, I mean… rich mahogany!?!) and all that scientific stuff. However, I’m inclined to say it has mostly to do with my ability to be completely aware and therefore, in control of my perspectives. I determine the experience I have and I usually find that I get what I put into things. As a wise man named Randy Pausch once wrote, “We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand”. So, I challenge you to play that hand the best you know how. In other words, rock with your rainbow socks out. Make every place you go your scene. Have a positive impact on every human encounter by choosing to focus on positive karma and trying your best to react with warm poise in all scenarios good or bad. I am not always successful in this voyage of heart, but I am consciously conscious of my actions and I know it makes a difference.

I’ve also realized my demeanor improves the more I sync what I say I want to do and what I’m actually doing. Simply, be honest with yourself. If you are true to you and to the people you interact with it will unfold a path with less regrets.

So, number 3-- Sync up your words & actions--make them one!

Soooo, if you’re saying you want to do something…knock that beastly bad battalion jerk out of the way OR just dress ‘em up in a pink boa, sparkly gold jacket, and shiny dancing shoes and drag 'em to the party celebrating your new and improved life. Awww yeeeeahh.