That's what she said....I've made a decision. It may not be the most stable, lucrative or advised choice, but it's the unbeaten path I must take to accomplish my life's conquest. And you better believe I'm rocking this makeshift trail with a weed whacker, a canteen of coconut water (for energy & hydration) and of course, an optimistically strong stride. Eat my dust, beaches.
What's the point of living; if we are afraid to challenge ourselves? What's the point of dying; if up until your last breath you have not been pursuing your life whole heartedly?
We can't positively progress if we are stuck in the mud, stubborn with our dirty old ways. Place aside influences that inhibit or wrongfully redirect your forward stride (people, bad habits, and mind blocks! OHH &... pointless and dramatic TV shows-->eh hem, repeat after me "TIME SUCK"). Obtain an open mind and heart by becoming who you're meant to be based on what you love--that feeling you get when you're lovin' on an activity that sounds a lot like "awwwww yeaaaaahhhh". My wonderful mother once gave me a book back in grade school (always wanted to say that--not so cool now that I'm turning twenty "how'd I get this old" six. Fail.) titled, "Do What You Love & The Money Will Follow". What a really nice concept--totally ready to try it out...although, I'm adding my own line underneath the title that reads, "And, even if the money doesn't follow...at least you'll be happy". Hopefully you are wise beyond your age and have discovered that happiness is not dollar bills. POW! : )
Some believe we have one chance on earth. If this is true, how would you ideally spend your time? The same way you are right now?
The point of this post came about abruptly and tragically. After the heartbreaking murder of two great guys I had met and became friends with about a month and a half ago, I was reminded immediately of how fragile the tiny speck that is our entire existence can burn out without warning. Facing my mortality, I am consciously re-evaluating my life (something we should be doing everyday). Through my reflection, I realized I wasn't completely in-sync with myself and I hadn't been for a long while. After a few days of utter disappointment with a few areas of my so-called-life and a coffee mug sized cup of tears, I stopped mulling over the unproductiveness of certain parts of my past and instead started focusing on every immediate moment being laid out before me in my future.
In the last few days....I've re-created myself. Or, is it that much like an archeologist, I've unearthed the Krissy that was living just beneath the surface of my skin--yearning to be revealed. Sounds quite magical when thought of that way. How inspiring it is to realize the endless possibilities of our own personal capacities. POW! POW!
Holy, runaway train! I almost forgot to mention my decision. The one I discovered while uncovering the bones of a better me: the ferocious goal devouring Velociraptor of sorts. After all these years of voicing my career visions of running a non-profit and having the passion, but not quite the drive to "Git R Done", I am finally putting my blood (ouch!), sweat (ew!), and tears (salty!) into it. "Awwwwww YEAHHHH"! I'm also jumping on the "struggling artist" bandwagon and painting, drawing & doodling my little heart out for some robert DINERO to keep me afloat. My boss (AKA: Me) doesn't pay me very well--scratch that, doesn't pay me period. So, if you need anything for your walls or know someone that does...commission me/recommend me. Will work for back massages, on occasion! ; )
Hey Krissy, stumbled across your post and couldn't help reading it. At times I can relate to that feeling of not being challenged and that we need to get off the "beaten path." I feel the life I currently live is one that has been planned by many people before me, go to college, get a job etc...
ReplyDeleteCurrently I am finishing work as an Americorps VISTA and trying to figure what the next step is and scary thinking about what lies out there for work (tough job market). Thanks to your post it has actually caused me to reflect upon my true intentions. Do I want to be a person who is just following someone for the sake of comfort? Do I want to abandon what I have and start something new? I think sometimes most people just want to fall into line and not challenge themselves. I think there's a good point there to doing something first and having the money follow later. As it is we see too many people following the money and not looking out for themselves.
I'd say this post qualifies you as a Philosoraptor
Warm Regards,
Drew.
Hi Drew,
ReplyDeleteThank you for the thoughtful comment. I am happy that my post has influenced you to reflect. Reflection helps us stay in tune with ourself which is so important in living a happy life.
I think you are on the right track. Figure out what makes you tic and take that chance to make it happen. If you believe in yourself and have a passionate determination to tackle your challenges.... you can't fail. Best of luck with your decisions!!
Best,
Krissy
Ps. I adore your Philosoraptor pun. Bravo!!! :)